Emshebal's Blog

  Watching TV series and films is one of the most common things we do to entertain ourselves, especially now that we are in the midst of pandemic. Most of us watch Korean dramas, Thai dramas, Hollywood series, and other TV series or movies in other countries rather than our local films. This gives me an idea to create a high-quality film because I also want our country to be recognized in the film industry, although we already have talented actresses and actors. I want all Filipinos to also patronize our own films, and give them different plots of stories to keep them entertained. Since I have a background in filming and one of my biggest dreams is to become a film director, I want to produce a TV series that has an excellent editing, a strong theme, and a not-so-typical romance or mistress that we usually watch on television.  I want something that would meet the same quality as "Harry Potter" and a more unique style of filming where I can promote our culture, our history, a...

There are many things about me that you didn't know. I'm hopeless. I'm helpless. I'm flawed. I'm insecure. I'm a pessimist. I'm a liar. I'm not happy. I'm anxious. I don't enjoy being alive.  Can somebody help me? Can someone hear me? I'm slowly drowning. I'm trying to help myself, but I just can't—it's too hard!  The voice  of demons that are crepting inside of my head are trying to impart that I shouldn't wake up. That it's good if I die now. It's tiring, really. My mind even tries to tell me that I'm worthless and no one will mourn for me if I die. And I accept it! It will only be ridiculous if I keep fighting against myself about the things that I can't control.  Sometimes, I just want to be invisible. I'm just tired of interacting with everyone. I don't care if you ask me how I am doing. Because I would eventually say I'm okay!—I'm great! Well, in fact, I'm suffering. It's hard to o...

We are living in a society where we need to meet the standards of the people, but what if we break these norms and beliefs? We have to instill in every person’s mind that we don’t need to be perfect in order to be called beautiful. Loving and accepting our natural appearance is already a form of self-appreciation. Hence, we should start normalizing these imperfections as the new standard of beauty. Perfection is like a set of rules that are regulated by society. Teenagers nowadays have insane ideals of perfection which are fed to them by the media and perpetuated by their friends. Perhaps, when we strive for perfection, it's difficult not to lose ourselves, because obtaining perfection entails giving up our imperfections and our uniqueness. We can't deny that we are flawed, and those imperfections that we have are naturally beautiful. Even though we have different types of skin tone—dark or white. In terms of body size—fat or thin. We may have a flat nose or not. We are still b...

  Do you also ask for a wish that wasn't granted? Then you suddenly feel disappointed and furious. You are clouded by your emotions to an extent that you start doubting God.  --- "Everything happens for a reason." This simple quote brought a massive impact in my life. When I was in secondary school, I wished something to God. I asked him if He could include me as one of the top 10 in our class. I wish that because I want my parents to be proud of me and be a role model to my siblings.  But that wish didn't happen.  I was very disappointed at that time. I did all my best to get on the top, but it's still not enough. That was the time that I started doubting that there was what they called God.  "Is he real?" That's the question that keeps bothering my mind. I was deeply hurt because it was just a simple request, but He couldn't grant it? Because of disappointment, I started not to pray and cut the ties between me and God.  --- One day, our teache...

I can't believe that as I grow older, the things that I hated before will be the things that I love now. When I was a kid, I didn't like to read books because I always thought that they were too lame and boring. I even say, "Reading a book is not fun."  I was a grade 7 student at that time when I saw my friend reading a book. I accosted her. I told her what was inside the book that made her addicted on reading it because she always plastered different sorts of facial expressions. That is why I got curious. So, I tried to take a peek at what she was reading. It's just a bunch of words, encoded on a piece of paper. There is nothing new about that, but as I read between the lines, I suddenly became thrilled and excited about the next chapter. I guess reading a book is not that bad. I borrowed the book from my friend so that I could read the first chapter. After a few days, I finished reading the novel, but sad to say, it's just part 1 of the book. I was eager to ...

When you were a kid, did you ever dream about your future job? Like becoming a doctor, teacher, chef, etc. Those were the times when we could still dream of whatever we wanted to be, but going on with the process was not easy. There is no goal that we can easily achieve with just a piece of pie. We need to give our effort and pour ourselves into it. As we grow older, do you also think that the path that you are following now is really the path that you wanted to pursue when you were a kid?  Well, when I was young, I dreamed of becoming an actress. I usually act in front of the mirror, wherein my parents find this trait of mine as very weird. I've started admiring different child actresses and I realized that I want to become one of them someday. But I was too shy to tell it to my parents that this was my dream, so I scribbled it down on a piece of paper. I wrote there that I wanted to become an actress. Then, my parents eventually found that piece of paper that I had put inside our...